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Thursday, July 31, 2008

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This blog is dead for nearly 1 year... suddenly i felt tat i missed out alot... and here i am emo-ing alone in the brink of the nite.... everythin is so quiet in the nite, its so peaceful, u wont get to hear birds chipping, u wont get to hear cars driving around... its just so peaceful and it makes pple like me to feel the quietness inside our heart... yuan lai my heart is empty... It is when nothing is wrong, but the feeling u get is.. sometin is veri wrong.. and truely, KENT LIKES TO BE ALONE BY HIMSELF.

KENT EXPRESSED HIS FEELINGS THROUGH SINGING AND NOT BY TOKIN
COS HE FEEL THAT THERE IS NO NEED TO TOK. ONLY THE SAME KIND WILL
UNDERSTAND HIS FEELINGS THROUGH THE SONG HE SINGS.
NOT BECOS KENT LOVES TO SING, SOMETIMES HE DOESNT EVEN WANA TO OPEN
HIS DAMN BLARDY MOUTH TO SING, JUST THAT SINGING WILL MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER, COS THE MELODY AND MUSIC MAKE HIS PROBLEMS SOUND NICER THAN JUST TOKIN AND CRYING OVER IT...

All this years, i have been searchin the answer for the emptiness in my heart... and i came back with no answer... everythin seems normal, everythin looks ok and i feel like a normal guy standing on the street just like everyone else in the world. I have my dreams, I have my hope, I have my wish. which is all yet to be fulfilled. You may say I am being too deep in the thinkin during my emo-ing time... and yes, mayb I am but too bad, this is wat i do.. i THINK~!!!
Sometimes I don't even know whats the problems... My life is too complicated till I don't even understand it myself.

What i really want in life? hav u ever asked yrself this question?

A year ago I tell myself that all I want is get a gal who reali love me and care for me...
A year later i break a gal's heart who is in love with me for 10months and mayb still loving...
and i did it with no purpose... just break cos i am tired of loving.. Is this the kent u all knw?
I know I am not like that in the past... So till now, I am still questioning myself... What is it that i really want in life...
Is it to do things to pleased every1 around me?
Is it to make pple feel that i am still alive?
Is it to pursue my dreams?
Is it to do like what other pple is doin? living a boring life? work,eat,slp?

How to make a life more interesting than that?
Have you guys ever wonder y u wont get to see me smile?
even in the photos that you have seen.
the normal ans i will gib u is, I wan to be more like Jay...
u may think that i am joking.. haha and laugh it out...

But y would Jay nt smiling like all u pple are always doin??

For me, i don wana act as if i am happy to pple around me...
I don like wearing a mask walkin in the street pretending that i am ok...
Its just me, the Kent that will always be... pls don ask me to smile if there is no need to
Cos i wont...

After reading all the crap on top, do u still think u knw me well enough?
Will u keep reading my other posts? Don think so rite... cos i am just another mother fucker
who likes to emo and bitching abt life...
Yea and thats the impression you all will get when you try to know me.

You wont wana know me, Cos I wont either...
If you think you can understand me well, den you can try your best,
But i wont promise that i wont disappoint you...
Only the same kind and people who are special to me will know me well DUDE...
If u think u are... den u can try your best and mayb u will knw mi someday...

I have this sign straight in my face stranger... (Stay Away)

Labels: EMO-ED kent

Signing Off On|7/31/2008 05:00:00 AM|

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