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Sunday, August 24, 2008

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As for mi chalet... i can say.. if ani1 from my team realli read mi post... let me tell u... $30 per person is nt much... let me list the pple who are goin..

1. me (enlistment date -16/9)
2.iskandar (enlistment date - 9/9)
3.jianlong
4.Ky (ORD date - 6/9)
5.kaiboon (enlistment date - unknown) soon mayb
6.kahhao (enlistment date - 13/9)
7.junwei
8.bingbing
9.jeremy
10.sebestian (enlistment date - unknown) soon mayb
11.jieying---->sebestian gf
12.Gerald----> my brother
13.dylan
14.eunice---->dylan's gf
15. Joel

So now we hav 15 pple... u guess who is paying $30?
1.iskandar
2.ky
3.kaiboon
4.kahhao
5.junwei
6.jianlong
7.sebestian
8.jieying
9.gerald
10.joel

ok.. i din miss out ani1...still got 5 more...
1.dylan
2eunice
3.bingbing
4.jeremy
5.me

consider it as 4 excluding me...this 4 pple... 3 of dem nt working and mayb nt stayin
which is
1.dylan
2.eunice
3.bingbing

left 1.. which is jeremy.. he hasnt comfirm wid me if he is staying anot becos he need togo to his attachment the next day.
so i left him out

so.......

10 pple paying $30 which adds up to 10x30=300
the rm itself is $304
don ask me y so expensive.. ask the NTUC pple instead..

304-300=?
4and of cos... makes me pay $4

Den....

wat abt FOOD?
how much do u usually collect when u organise BBQ?
the last time i knw.. its budgeted around 150 for like 10 pple... and tat timefood is nt enough..
so i estimated it will take us 150-180

so...

who is gonna pay???expected ans will b me....

180+4=?$184

WOW....tats almost the cost of my new hair color... and u all wana knw wats the difference between wat i pay and wat u all pay?

184-30=?
154....

i paid 154 more than all of u... did i ever tell you... i'm nt interested to pay so much... or even... 'its too much and wat for i need to pay so much? y don wan distibute this amount amoung every1?'

i hav to plan wat to do and preparation for the day... who can help me?
normally i expect pple to siam this help part and just wana enjoy for wat they pay...
wat if i ask u all to cab down to our chalet wid the food for BBQ?
you cant expect my dad to realli do things for me.. cos he hav his own stuff to do
will yr dad do the driving from woodlands to pasir ris?
from wat i knw.. there is at least 4 of us whose dad's drive...think again..
i din ask ur dad to drive us down...
i do up this plannin using all mi resources oni

So...

which make taking a cab down as our next option'who wana pay for the cab?' is the question i expect from you all...so you think, who shall pay for the cab?

ME
or
YOU?

I did nt complaint anithin abt this.. and 184 is reali too much for me... i just pay... as long as i can gather every single 1 of u together... for the last time... i am willing to put my blood into this and make it happen...

cos i tressure every single 1 of you as my friends in life... whenever you all tok abt the chalet.. sayin things like.. 'its too expensive..' , 'y some nt paying?' , 'y booked so ex? can book smaller rm wat', 'wat for need to go?', 'if the pple nt stayin are nt payin, den i also don stay, cos i don wana pay'.

And you knw how i feel when i heard those words? if u were me... you were planning to put in such a big sum of money in this chalet.. and u hav pple like this.... how u will feel?

sometimes i dono i shld say u all immatured or selfish...
how i wish i can be like some of you outside...
to b so selfish...
den i wont be always emptying my bank account for pple like U...

This is how much i can do for u guys...
how much can u do for me in the next 3 weeks?

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Signing Off On|8/24/2008 06:11:00 AM|

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Hi there every1... past few days, sometin happen... which is the day i anticipated ever since i was being drop out of sch...

people may not understand the ways i do things.... mayb oni some?
or 0?
nt even my closest bro understand how i feel towards this thing....
as if tat non of mi stuff was his business until i hav to tell him straight on his face wid a pissed off tone...

as u all knw.. i was planning a chalet for mi basketball friends cos some of dem are goin Ns in 2 weeks time... and soon.. i got mi letter too... stated i need to go tekong for some training for
3months n 1 week.... and its on the 16 of sept...

actually.. its realli too soon actually for me.. as in i am nt realli prepare to giving up things in my life just for this Ns thing... every guy in singapore need to waste 2 years time inside.. and u cant run away from tat fact tat i am a guy... so its ok for me...

How does it sounds like... when a gal need to waste 2 years of her youth ? sound weird? 2 years for wat? ani idea? all i knw is... it is nt right for some1, a guy or a gal to waste their time on sometin tat has unseen future... for tat reason.. i hav to be a jerk tellin her.. 'i don love u animore, i wan u to leave me and get yr own life back..' it a 2 sentence in mi phone when i sms her... but this 2 sentence make a big impact...

if 1 day... yr love one sms u.... sometin like... 'dear... tml wan meet wat time? i miss u' or 'dar u when go ns? i miss u' sounds so sweet rite... and u replied her... 'i don love u animore... leave me alone...' and stuff lidat.. u would expect a big reaction from her... but if she realli love u... she will leave u.. thinkin tat you are a bastard.. and boom... there goes yr happiness.... and suffering in 2 years.. knwin tat u will b thinkin of her in this 2 years... and worst still when she got a new bf when u r inside missin her...

I rather hurt u now den hurt u later when i don hav time for u... i cant commit miself to anithin when i am in ns.. cos i don even knw how things work inside... time management n plannin u all may say is the thing i need to do to maintain the relationship... but if u don even understand things inside... and its realli nt easy to b thinkin too much when u r in camp...
its like u knw wat thing happen outside and u can do nth when u r inside the camp...

I LEAVE YOU, FOR YOUR OWN GOOD... I DON WISH TO SPOIL YR FUTURE AND END UP LOSING OUT TO OTHERS... I MAY SOUND SO 'WEI DA' BUT I HOPE U UNDERSTAND...

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Signing Off On|8/24/2008 05:27:00 AM|

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

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Today... i gonna do sometin different...

pple... pls tag if u r reading... haha.. thx

Here i start... when i am planning for a 'pre-NS' event for miself and some of mi friends...
I was thinkin... shld i ask mi other grp of friends along?

Actually... I miss my sec sch days... especially my buddies back then... haha... 9 of us...
always planning what to do after sch... but always ended up playing basketball nearby our sch..

If any of the 8 are reading my blog.. which i don think there is... i wana apologize to u guys..
I always take your existance for granted... whenever u am attached.. i will neglect u all... i knw this is part of the reason y i am totally disconnected from you guys now...

After all the lovey things i gone through in my life, those heart breaking times... i came to realise that what i missed out is not the love that almost every1 is lookin for... but i missed out the fun hanging wid you guys although most of the time we are always walkin around doin nth...
My birthday wish after i am 'disconnected' to you guys is to play basketball like we used to be, before i go NS... haha...

I am postin my wish here... and i knw none of them is interested to view my blog.. thats y i dare to post it....

Guys, i always wanted to tell you all this... my passion in life and yours are totally different... i sometimes do things which are stupid... and i hate to get critized by some of you when i need to be encourage instead... although i am disconnected wid you guys for sometime.... i always regard you all as my best buddies in my life.. no 1 can replace the 8 of you....

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Signing Off On|8/14/2008 05:33:00 AM|

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

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Hi.. i am back.. recently don realli hav much to blog abt...
but one of mi friend had a beri bad r/s encounter.. and it make me think!!!

How fast can a feeling change so drastically....
A moment.. u feel so in love wid some1, another moment u can hate tat very same person
A moment.. u feel that you are the happiest person in the world.. the next moment you feel so alone.. haha... is it true that mood swing really swing till such extend??

I am quite happy that my friend had gotten over that guy and start being happy like she used to be...
But what puzzled me is, why would some1 take such a long time to change his or her feelins when feelins are so flexible in life....
Even when you know staying bitter or sad for that person who does not even treat you a living person in his or her life...
You will naturally think you would wana wait for him or her and blah blah blah....
Nothing much about some1 who don even care abt yr existance... actually all you had to do is to move on in yr OWN life.. and nt live your life for OTHERS...
Feelings are easy to cultivate and are also easy to fade... it depends on what kind of encounter you met...

an experience person will knw how to make a feelin burn so hard... and that same person will also knw how to make the feelins fade like NOTHING...
am i rite?

As for me.. i dont even know if i really understand the whole concept of everything that i hav been tellin pple... cos i dont do wat i say... haha... I knw the ans all the time.. but i don react on it.. but instead sometimes, i am doin foolish things like what others will do... mayb bcos sometimes i am being too naive... haha... But 1 thing for sure.. i will still move on wid mi own life... cos i live a fantastic life wid good pple and good family... So i can still survive and lead the life i always wanted to...

Hope you can also be like me... to whoever is reading....

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Signing Off On|8/12/2008 04:51:00 AM|

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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

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Back to blog again...
Today gonna blog abt the goin into relationship...

Well, i might not know everythin abt relationship stuff.. but i went through quite alot..
and i am a failure in relationship...

Have u ever like some1 in yr life? have u ever missed some1 veri badly?
Have u ever try to date tat some1 that u missed veri badly?

What makes people do this? i mean, our main purpose at our age was to study and get good grades... but y are we thinkin abt gettin together wid the person tat we like?
Strange rite.. haha

Getting started is always easy... to maintain it? Hard to say... When money issue step in... den its a different story already... Being together wid some1 means you gotta spend your own money and not the money yr parents gave you... being in a relationship means you have to know how to take care of yourself 1st so that u can take care of yr partner..
All in all, it means to be dependant... in the thinkin and behavior...

How much can you provide for your partner? everythin in your life?? haha
How much do you have in your life if it is nt what your parents gave you?
Since they were from your parents, den choosing your partner also require parental acceptance rite? haha, tats logic

Are you able to standby your partner even when he or she is financially broke and emotionally unstable? you can say yes infront of your partner face.. but when things really happen.. things will be different...

When 1 day, you bf ask like $400 from you, cos he do sometin stupid like gambling and owe pple money... will you readily GIVE hi m this 400? notice i use GIVE and not LEND... SO as a gal, will you?? or will you be thinkin that your gal friend's bf oni giv dem money and not what is happenin to you... or will you be thinkin that wat you can buy wid this $400 for yrself...
This part of love I am tokin abt is self-less love... just like how yr parent's love for you.. they giv you everythin you need in your life and nv ask you back for sometin.. imagine your parents on have you, and they will be better off spending the money rather than spending on you.

Next...
imagine your partner physical appearance is damn handsome or pretty. And 1 day he or she met wid an accident... and it destroy his or her appearance... Will you still STANDBY your partner?
Whereby whenever you go out wid your partner, every1 in the public will be lookin at the both of you usin a strange manners?
This is the support that is require in a relationship..

Next...
imagine your partner is from a Rich family... and 1 day, he or she suddenly become poor... the poor i mean is really $0 in his or her pocket everyday... will you still be going out with he or she?

If you wana learn how to really love some1... just look at how yr parents love you... no matter what has become of you, they are always by yr side... mayb their love is nt tat outspoken.. but oni the love of parents is genuine...

Often pple will say, such things wont so suay happen to them... but wat if tat realli happen?
Den it will really prove how much you are ready to give in to your love 1...

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Signing Off On|8/06/2008 03:54:00 PM|

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Sunday, August 03, 2008

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Been away for somedays.. cos i have been thinkin of wat topic to blog down..
And here, I am gonna blog about relationship!!!

Seems like a very common topic.. cos every1 surely have at least 1 person related to them...
which is your parents.. But i am not gonna tok abt parents again... so boring, previous post is parents now parents again...

Relationship can be a beri complicated thing to talk about...
1. Boy, Gal relationship
2. Friends
3. Spouse
4. Family
5. Religion

Most of you people will be more interested in the BGR part rite...
hmm... 1 common question when suddenly a guy add a gal in friendster out of nowhere which is..
'are u attached?'
I dono for u guys... but i am lidat b4.. haha.. It is only wise to ask this question because you wont waste anytime knowing some1 who u r nt interested in...
Anyway, i don't do that animore...

Actually BGR can make a very big impact on a person's life. Some kids even commit suiside due to their parents won't allow them to get involve in relationships lidat...
There was even a debate host on the TV on 'Shld parents allow their kids to have BGR?'

Haha... I cant say anythin rite... cos i am one of the kids who was involve in BGR... What I wana say is once u step into this BGR stuff, its really very hard to get back to normal again..
As in, once you are hurt, you will get yrself another lover again, In order to feel love by some1 again..

Its like once you got hooked onto a drug.. you will get addicted and you will keep wantin more of it.
If I can turn back the time... i will turn it back to b4 i got into a r/s wid a gal and not involve in such stuff...

Human feelings are hard to control.. sometimes it is so passionate for something, the next moment, it will be so dead about it... Thats how you will feel when you had a long term relationship. Soon you will be tired of everythin and you would like to be single. And when you are single, you wana love from others... contridicting rite... haha..

Seriously speaking... i am really hooked by the r/s thing already... hopefully my NS will break this bond away from me...

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Signing Off On|8/03/2008 03:55:00 AM|

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Friday, August 01, 2008

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Alrite... Today I would like to talk about Family

hmm... What about family? Do u have one? What is there to talk abt it? Do u understand Whats the meaning of the word FAMILY??

F-Father
A-And
M-Mother
I-I
L-Love
Y-You

If u notice Family= Father and Mother I love You

SO yea, family is abt loving your parents and of cos every1 in yr family.
Have you ever asked yrself, do you reali love yr parents ?
or you just treat dem as a money tree?

Alot of teenage who is like me will always start a conversation with their parents by telling
them... 'I have no more money to use'

And after you got your money and there you goes again.. doin yr own stuff as if you are invinsible in the house...

I came across some family problems... those that my friends had shared with me... some are really bad, but some just don realli need to be a concern to.. Every family has thier own problem, cos thats what life is all about... you will always have problems. Its just the how the way you are going to react to your problems...

I am of cos not gonna share about my friend's family problems and of cos nt mine, cos I don't do such things.. Whatever the problem is or was, you just have to standby yr parents notice what I say... parentS, means yr dad n yr mom... in some family, there may be some feud between people in the family cos of some action done in the past and pple are not able to forgive. But no matter what, every bits n pieces of you is what yr parents gave you. The blood n fleshes represents the love from yr parents, so you cant be telling me that yr parents don't love you.

To start a family is damn easy, just like starting a relationship.. what i mean is get a lover and be together... but to maintain sometin is always difficult..
In a relationship, when things don't went well you can just break up and walk on separate ways.
But in a family, when things don't went well, do you think your parents can just walk on separate ways and neglect their own child? So whats the role of children in a family?

From my point of view, our role as children is not only to do what yr parents wants you to do, but also to support this family together with them. We are humans, we can communicate, thats is the only think only human can do. Communicate with each other in the family... don treat each other as stranger at home... I don see why you can be so communicative with some1 who you just know from friendster or facebook and you cant even talk to your parents for more than 5mins... So... get my point??

There is nothing in this world that cannot be solve.. There is always a way to every problems, its just how you gonna solve it. Even the strongest pple in this world are afriad of loneliness, and it happen to be, whenever you have problems coming in.. you will find yrself always alone... and this is when pple in the family come in.

I wana share a story told by a friend of mine... 'One day, a highly wanted man was being caught by the police, and the police interrogate this man asking,'Why did you do all this crimes?' and the man replied 'Cos my dad was like this also.' This wanted man had a twin brother. So after a few months had pass and this twin brother is listed one of the most successful person in his country and one of the reporter ask 'Why are you so successful, Whats your secrets?' and this man replied 'I had a good for nothing father and I don wish to be like him, so I work damn hard just to be a better person than my dad.'

I dono for you, but for me after I heard this story all I can say is... Woah... 'Tong ren, bu tong ming' = living the same kind of live but with differnt outcomes... why is it so? becos of how you react and solve the very own problems...

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Signing Off On|8/01/2008 04:27:00 AM|

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