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Sunday, August 24, 2008

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Hi there every1... past few days, sometin happen... which is the day i anticipated ever since i was being drop out of sch...

people may not understand the ways i do things.... mayb oni some?
or 0?
nt even my closest bro understand how i feel towards this thing....
as if tat non of mi stuff was his business until i hav to tell him straight on his face wid a pissed off tone...

as u all knw.. i was planning a chalet for mi basketball friends cos some of dem are goin Ns in 2 weeks time... and soon.. i got mi letter too... stated i need to go tekong for some training for
3months n 1 week.... and its on the 16 of sept...

actually.. its realli too soon actually for me.. as in i am nt realli prepare to giving up things in my life just for this Ns thing... every guy in singapore need to waste 2 years time inside.. and u cant run away from tat fact tat i am a guy... so its ok for me...

How does it sounds like... when a gal need to waste 2 years of her youth ? sound weird? 2 years for wat? ani idea? all i knw is... it is nt right for some1, a guy or a gal to waste their time on sometin tat has unseen future... for tat reason.. i hav to be a jerk tellin her.. 'i don love u animore, i wan u to leave me and get yr own life back..' it a 2 sentence in mi phone when i sms her... but this 2 sentence make a big impact...

if 1 day... yr love one sms u.... sometin like... 'dear... tml wan meet wat time? i miss u' or 'dar u when go ns? i miss u' sounds so sweet rite... and u replied her... 'i don love u animore... leave me alone...' and stuff lidat.. u would expect a big reaction from her... but if she realli love u... she will leave u.. thinkin tat you are a bastard.. and boom... there goes yr happiness.... and suffering in 2 years.. knwin tat u will b thinkin of her in this 2 years... and worst still when she got a new bf when u r inside missin her...

I rather hurt u now den hurt u later when i don hav time for u... i cant commit miself to anithin when i am in ns.. cos i don even knw how things work inside... time management n plannin u all may say is the thing i need to do to maintain the relationship... but if u don even understand things inside... and its realli nt easy to b thinkin too much when u r in camp...
its like u knw wat thing happen outside and u can do nth when u r inside the camp...

I LEAVE YOU, FOR YOUR OWN GOOD... I DON WISH TO SPOIL YR FUTURE AND END UP LOSING OUT TO OTHERS... I MAY SOUND SO 'WEI DA' BUT I HOPE U UNDERSTAND...

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Signing Off On|8/24/2008 05:27:00 AM|

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