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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

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hey i am back alrite...
it has been awhile since i last blog..
and here it goes..
6 more days to go...
to ns...

which left me wid so little time left...
and i just wana spend this little time to do sometin worthwhile and wid some1 worthy...

I came to knw this grp of boys..
they are really boys ok... oni sec 1...
knew them in mi hse bb court... and there is 1 particular boy who caught my eyes
i saw another me when i saw him... of cos nt the looks... but the way he play basketball
which makes me wana teach him the real basketball which i know so far... haha.. wid so little time left.. guess i cant do much aniway... just gona hang around the court man...

just now when i was tokin wid one of the chef in mi work lounge...
he was tellin me abt goin overseas to further his career.. and told me pple are recruitin him..
i tell u.. he really can cook ok...
anyway.. he is just like a dad to me la... fat fat, tall tall, cute cute... really hav got the chef looks..
haha.. he was saying.. if he cant get his PR approval.. den he will move on and do wat he wana do... and i told him wat i feel... i told him... what for wait for the PR stuff to settle.. since he had a plan, a dream.. y nt go do it now? correct? since he stil hav the time to do it.. haha... reali hope he can do sometin big in his life... rather than being a small chef in an airport lounge...

Ok.. next to other stuff...
well.. this few days.. i hav been thinkin... how is it like... to love some1 widout havin ani status wid tat some1.. i always din hav the chance to hav such feelings.. well.. mayb my r/s wid mi previous other gals always seems so successful... hmmm in the get together part i mean alrite...
other than some gals whom i like but din get to b wid dem...
but this time... the feelin is different ok... in this case... i can spend lots of time wid her... act like she is my gf.. u knw.. like always b wid her whenever she needed some1... but i knw she din regard me as her bf... well... mayb she din even consider the fact tat i am always wid her when she needed some1 to bite.. needed some1 to spend her boring times wid.. needed some1 to buy her food... needed some1 to provide her those chi dramas... needed some1 to cheer her up... make some stupid joke and needed some1 to just accompany her to smoke....nevertheless... i knw i don hav much time left already.. just wana spend mi rest of the time wid her hopefully, if nt for the boy i am tokin abt just now... other than that.. i don wana think too much already..

mayb i will b a changed person when i come out... but at least for now.. i am certain for the feeling i had alrite... don come n ask me who this new gal is... becos.. if i wana u to knw.. i will tell u miself...

Kent may always seems alone... but his imagination and his thinkin keep his life ALIVE...
alrite... i am nt as boring as u seems i am.. and i am nt as daring as u guys sees me as... i am shy sometimes ok... mayb u guys may expect more from me.. but i can tell u.. i am always doin my best in watever i am doin for u guys out there... in any area u can name it.. basketball.. church.. family.. r/s.. sch... game... many many more stuff... bcos.. no matter wat i am doin.. i am always thinking abt every1 in mi life.... every1 whom i got encountered wid.. i RMB every single things tat needed to be rmb... this is what keep my life so ALIVE....

1 last thing... this is abt mi real life bro ok...
when we are on our way back home from church... we started tokin abt our family..
most of it. is abt our parents... and how we cope in this family which seems so perfect... but
in actual fact... its nt as perfect as it seems to b... well.. nth is perfect rite...
just wana let him knw... no matter how much i hav to giv in to this family.. no matter who is rite or who is wrong.. i just wana make every decision in this family rite... bcos if WE make ani mistake in this family.. you and i knw.. it will lead to a very bad ending.. which i wont mind actually.. cos i am used to being alone in this hse... but don forget abt those 2 small ones at home.. i knw its all abt whose rite or wrong in yr mind.. i knw you felt betrayed and every emotion it may be for wats happened in the past.. i also felt how u felt... and i knw whats the change in you after that incident... and for that... you took every chance to show the worst truth in this hse... and you nearly cant slp in the same rm as me forever...
in this hse... i may nt b tokin too much.. i may seems nt concern abt ANYTHIN... actually.. i am more concern than you do.. just that.. there is no need to show how much u concern.. bcos they wont care abt how we think.. they only care how they think... for all the things i do in this family.. i din regret every single moments... cos i knw.. if i din do those things in the past... we wont be living together peacefully now... rmb my bro.. your actions in this hse... determind this family's future.. this is my last word to you b4 i go in... you gotta take care of this 2 small 1.. discipline them when it is needed like what i always do... take the responsibility of a big bro when yr big bro is nt around... which makes u LAO ER... this family wont maintain wid oni our parents effort.. its time for u to do sometin already... they are countin you to do almost everythin in this hse... do your best and tok to me when u r troubled...

Labels: EMO-ED kent

Signing Off On|9/10/2008 04:47:00 AM|

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